Jessica (hardchoices) wrote in lyrics4christ,

I wrote this about my eating problems...
my dreams in music...
my boyfriend...
and life itself...inspired not to give up

Indeed, the very hairs of your head are numbered. You mean more to me than many sparrows.
Luke 12: 7

But the LORD said to Samuel, "Do not look at his appearance or at the height of his stature, because I have rejected him; for God sees not as man sees, for man looks at the outward appearance, but the LORD looks at the heart."
1 Samuel 16:7

Here's the world
looking in the mirror
when your shirt's too short
and your stomach's not perfect
your hair's going in different directions
but overall you can decide
that you really kinda like it

Oh, you can't help but think
you've got something to prove
so you feel a little stronger
when you're becoming anorexic

Believe me, I know
when you're losing control
unsure what to do about
the things you've always wanted
And the dreams you've always had

But at leas there's someone who loves you
all the time, who makes you happy
Nothing's so bad, so wrong
if it makes you happy

Today you ate a little breakfast
'cause you're not so sure
you really wanna lose it
But right now
you're debating to get used to
eating smaller portions
or eating close to nothing
Believe me, I know

But throw that magazine away
'cause lies lies lies is all it tells
fight those voices inside your head
'cause all they say is that it's
up to you, but control
is what you want the most
(And it's what you're gonna lose)

But at least he's callin' you when he can
tellin' you to hold on tight
'cause together you both can do anything
You've got your dreams you've always had
And you're gonna regret it
if you don't try
It's what you need to make you happy
So you know it can't be that bad

Just like this all makes you feel strong
Lies lies lies is all it is
The truth is you just wanna be okay
I wanna be okay being me

'cause at least I know who I am
And someone who holds me
And doesn't run
when the days get dark
and pain starts sinking in
The sun still shines every day
And this fight I'm having
I'll find a way
to get through to just being me
'cause you know this isn't me
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